Yes, I am finally starting to feel like I am getting my sanity back. For a while there, I wasn't sure if I would. I guess its just all of the stress I've been under lately. Worry over not selling the house, my niece passing away, living in the camper, Monte going out in the field....and so on and so on.
I still haven't come to terms with my niece passing away. I think about her almost everyday and am sad that I never got to really know her. I wish I could have gone out to California with Monte for the funeral as I may have been able to get some closure. I find that when I am thinking about her, I look at my boys and wonder if I would even be able to live if I lost one of them. I imagine that I would just lay down and die. How does a parent get over (or better yet, just learn to deal with) the loss and move on? Its just so sad.
Moving into base housing has helped to keep me busy and keep my mind off of my sadness. I'm still a bit disorganized, but now that the boys are in their new schools and I'm slowly getting the house unpacked, I feel as though I'm starting to get back on track. Monte's been on leave since last week, so having him with me everyday has been helpful too. We've been able to spend some quality time together, both with the boys and without while they have been at school. I have enjoyed every minute he's been home.
Well, I guess that's it for now. Y'all have a great evening and God Bless!
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